Old Flame

Tall, dark and handsome
He had an piercing
That revealed his youthful energy
The hood caught my attention
Gray in colour
Boasting of its worth
And yes it accentuated his style
A quick introduction by my roommate
And I was hooked to his surly husky voice
He had an accent right
And I fixated my eyes on his jumpers
Then my roomie held my hands
It was time to go.

I asked her
I had to
Who was he
How do you know him
But she quickly dismissed him
Who, you mean Shady?
Yes,Shady and not amused
That she didn't take my curiosity seriously
Not kindly taken.

A week later I would bumb into Him
But he had company
And his company
Introduced me to Him
Please meet Shady
Oh yeah, my roomie's pal
Glad to meet you again.
Please meet my girlfriend Nancy.
Everything had been said.

We quickly became friends
Bumped into each other often
On campus
I sought to know him
I invited him into my world
A friendship was brewing
One that kept the other entertained
Walks around the school
Just before and after classes
I never minded his company
His brains was something I enjoyed picking
But he also had all types of imaginary folktales
Not sure how he managed to make them up
But they were entertaining
I chose to enjoy his company
His friendship
His advises
He was a bit mature for his age.

Eons later I was no longer the girlfriend to his friend
I was torn, hurt and broken
He was there
Trying to crack silly jokes through the pain.

He became a dependable brother
I could call him in times of need
I could count on his support
He helped me launch one of my dreams
When the going got tough
He was ready to create a position for me in His company.
Yes, the lad had created something for himself after campus.
He was simply put an EMPLOYER.
I met this other dude
We got it right
It appeared the right person
And I was over my Ex
We hit it off very fast
One thing led to another.
We broke up as fast as we had become a 'couple'.
But there was trouble.
I carried his seed.


I moved on.
I will be strong
I will work hard
No more giving people my heart
My world
I will close that chapter
And focus my energy on something greater
Something that would give me a sense of purpose.
I am now a mother
I should know better.
It was time to fill the voids, the gaps,the emptiness.
I met my maker
He walked with me.

6 years later
I remembered my old friend
Shady.
Who was he
Why was he so kind to me
How is he fairing on
Probably married with kids
I wanted his friendship
I wanted to hear his voice again
I wanted his business acumen
I wanted to see him again
May be I can finally answer
Who he is.

I write a text
I do not send it
May be he forgot about me
May be he would be happy to hear from me
May be he is the one
May be he is not the one
I finally clicked the send button
I hold my breath as I see all my shade get exposed.
But I have lost so much before
Not to know the worth of not taking a risk
He responds.