Waiting on God

I begin writing this post with an apprehensive heart,carefully measuring my words because the topic can never be exhausted...I believe in our own personal journeys of faith we've all had a different experience on how we wait on God. But perhaps what can remain constant to most believers is every 'wait' is different depending on the subject at hand. What have you been waiting on God to answer? How long has it been? What did you do during this period? Or maybe like me you are still waiting on God for something.

 When I gave my life to Christ, within me I thought things are now going to be smooth,whatever I asked God He will answer  because this time round it's a prayer of His very own child; a  prayer of a righteous woman ( not by might but by the Spirit of God through the powerful blood of the lamb). Little did I know,I had so much to learn before I could actually reap the benefits of his word from James 5:16 that says "The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much”. It didn't help much either when month after month I kept on hearing the wonderful things that God is doing on other people's lives whilst when I looked at my life I felt abandoned. I kept on singing a favorite gospel song by one Christina Shusho "Unikumbuke" which means "Remember me". However no matter how much I made the song my everyday prayer and did daily devotions and never missed the Sunday sermons,I still didn't have my 'big' prayer answered. I put it 'big' because I don't want to take for granted that for a long while I finally had my peace back by accepting my being a single mother,made new friends that had become like family to me, had great health both me and my daughter, and never lacked food nor shelter.

At times I felt  very discouraged and kept wondering where could I be going wrong? Where exactly in my life am I not pleasing God? Doesn't He see the tears of His child? Doesn't He think what I have gone through is enough? For how long am I going to be in the wilderness? When is my relief coming? When is my season of glory appearing? What about all the great things that God says about me? What about the prophesies spoken over my life? Many questions were on my mind. Nevertheless I didn't think quitting on God was an option. I knew very well by experience the price of serving the devil and for that reason I didn't see much to go back to...this salvation route had to be the only way for my life. I was determined to have a relationship with our mighty God and I kept on searching for truth with  gratitude.

It was while on this waiting period that I stumbled upon a post by one of my favorite blogger and my strength was renewed!  A year had passed since I had made my prayer  and still no manifestation. You can read the post here~ The Tide is Changing.
The author Kambua reminded me the story of Hannah in the bible,who year in year out could not have a baby yet. Her barrenness was a source of great humiliation and this led Hannah  to her knees before God.She cried to God  to a point that one day the priest saw how her eyes had become sore and her actions made the priest think she had gone mad. But as the story develops,God came through for her and prophet Samuel was born. It is a story of victory and God's faithfulness.

It was during that same month after reading that post and having a renewal of mind among other things such as deep revelations to what the 'enemy' can do,that my "baby" was delivered and in the most amazing way yet that only Jehovah can do! I still testify to this day of His glory! The Ephesians 6:12 verse finally made sense to me as a growing christian "For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places." and God kept on leading me to more scriptural revelations that are increasingly making my prayer life more effective.

So yes it could take a year like me to get an answer and it could be less or more,but whatever the case giving up on God and prayer is not an option. Whatever sacrifice you are making concurrently with your prayer just keep at it even more fervent and believe you me God will show up!

I have written this post as I reminder to myself of a waiting journey that yielded results eventually and because am still waiting on God for yet another 'baby'.Yesterday night as my midnight alarm rang to wake me up from sleep and pray, I wanted to give up because I had not seen a sign yet of my 'answer' and days have turned to weeks and weeks to months and the promise has not yet been delivered.Still, I woke up and knelt before God and kept on firing the prayer bullets. Today morning as I settled on my work station I resolved not to give up,and pray incessantly until His manifestation.  He makes all things possible to them that loveth the Lord! This post is to you  and me who is waiting on God,let's keep on trusting Him with unflagging resolve.

Blessings!