Old Flame

Tall, dark and handsome
He had an piercing
That revealed his youthful energy
The hood caught my attention
Gray in colour
Boasting of its worth
And yes it accentuated his style
A quick introduction by my roommate
And I was hooked to his surly husky voice
He had an accent right
And I fixated my eyes on his jumpers
Then my roomie held my hands
It was time to go.

I asked her
I had to
Who was he
How do you know him
But she quickly dismissed him
Who, you mean Shady?
Yes,Shady and not amused
That she didn't take my curiosity seriously
Not kindly taken.

A week later I would bumb into Him
But he had company
And his company
Introduced me to Him
Please meet Shady
Oh yeah, my roomie's pal
Glad to meet you again.
Please meet my girlfriend Nancy.
Everything had been said.

We quickly became friends
Bumped into each other often
On campus
I sought to know him
I invited him into my world
A friendship was brewing
One that kept the other entertained
Walks around the school
Just before and after classes
I never minded his company
His brains was something I enjoyed picking
But he also had all types of imaginary folktales
Not sure how he managed to make them up
But they were entertaining
I chose to enjoy his company
His friendship
His advises
He was a bit mature for his age.

Eons later I was no longer the girlfriend to his friend
I was torn, hurt and broken
He was there
Trying to crack silly jokes through the pain.

He became a dependable brother
I could call him in times of need
I could count on his support
He helped me launch one of my dreams
When the going got tough
He was ready to create a position for me in His company.
Yes, the lad had created something for himself after campus.
He was simply put an EMPLOYER.
I met this other dude
We got it right
It appeared the right person
And I was over my Ex
We hit it off very fast
One thing led to another.
We broke up as fast as we had become a 'couple'.
But there was trouble.
I carried his seed.


I moved on.
I will be strong
I will work hard
No more giving people my heart
My world
I will close that chapter
And focus my energy on something greater
Something that would give me a sense of purpose.
I am now a mother
I should know better.
It was time to fill the voids, the gaps,the emptiness.
I met my maker
He walked with me.

6 years later
I remembered my old friend
Shady.
Who was he
Why was he so kind to me
How is he fairing on
Probably married with kids
I wanted his friendship
I wanted to hear his voice again
I wanted his business acumen
I wanted to see him again
May be I can finally answer
Who he is.

I write a text
I do not send it
May be he forgot about me
May be he would be happy to hear from me
May be he is the one
May be he is not the one
I finally clicked the send button
I hold my breath as I see all my shade get exposed.
But I have lost so much before
Not to know the worth of not taking a risk
He responds.

He Loves you NOT!

“What is man, that you are mindful of him? And the son of man, that you visit him?” Psalms 8:4

 A very happy month of August you are wished my dear reader and I am much humbled for your audience. The psalmist as recorded in the verse quoted above, made me realize a few truths about the reality of how special me and you are to God, and how unfortunately we like to dwell on our ‘smallness’.

What is man- When we look at the enormous expanse of all God has created, you wonder what claim has these weak, frail, and ever disappointing people have? What possibly is there in a mere mortal that warrants him so much notice from God? Why has our creator discussed me and you with such a signal of honor? Why my dear beloved did He place us over the marvelous, magnificent works of His holy hands? Why I ask again, did God make so many arrangements for my comfort? Why does He have to save such a wretched soul? My bible tells me I was created just a little lower than  the angels, crowned with glory and honor and given authority over all things ~ Hebrews 2:7  How highly valuable my dear friend does God consider us? We are so sinful and polluted to the core, that it begs the question, why such honor has been conferred to us, why have we been given dominion over the world?

That thou art mindful of him- That God does constantly and wholly think of me. Why should the all-powerful creator, grand and beautiful, vast and glorious, and who has all the sparkly worlds turn his attention and thoughts on man?

And the son of man-The honor extends to the descendant of man! Have any of man descendants done anything to claim such honor? There is nothing by any design that man has, or can even be considered close in any respect to accord him such exalted honor. Nothing that the human race has done since the writing of this question by the psalmist either, that has significantly contributed to respond to the potency of this inquiry.

That thou visits him- With uttermost attention and care bestowed upon us; never forgetting us or abandoning us. That He meets us at the point of our needs. A visitation for mercy, for favor, for friendship, for healing, for protection, for breakthroughs, for all our needs!

#RexMaina photography :With my sister Joziey keenly following events at Anchored Fellowship 

Allow me to share a personal experience that I had some time back that brought all the preaching and teaching I have received over time about my worthiness and the enemy of my soul into clarity. I was deep in slumber land when I felt a great force clasping my hands as if to handcuff them, restraining me not to do anything with my hands. There was a bit of a tussle between me and the force as I tried desperately to free myself from its grip. However something more arousing happened at this brief encounter with a dark force, my senses were all awaken in a way that I could feel the hatred and the ugliness that was coming from this ‘thing’. The kind of animosity I felt coming from it was enough to finish me off as brutally as it could given the chance. This loathing is what startled me more than the fact that my hands were tightly locked in ‘its’. I could even think of a few people that I have brushed their shoulders in the wrong way or had differences and as such they have no much liking to me, but still their dislike of me all combined together could not be counted even to a 1/5^th of what this thing felt about me. Such a magnitude of abhorrence it was that I found myself exasperatedly calling on the name of Jesus and pleading for his precious blood to save me. It was just horrible. I woke up, breaking a sweat and immediately went onto my knees to pray. Till now, that event is always very vivid in my memory.

What this awful encounter did to me is that it allowed me see and learn firsthand the kind of ENEMY I have. An enemy that did not want my hands to do anything fruitful and God knows what else it was planning! An enemy that was so damn ugly and filled with so much hate for me that it broke my poor heart to think how casually I had entertained him for so many years! This enemy has come in disguise and he is so much part of the world system. He has one mega goal and that is to destroy your soul! He disguises himself as “cool, classy, the in-thing, trendy and many more…” using our media to corrupt us, and over the years he has been gaining grounds on all key mountains. I am blessed and quite fortunate to live in Kenya, a place where I have the freedom to shout the name of my King Jesus without any intimidation. In some parts of the world, they have had to scrap off Christian education from their school curriculum and it is illegal to do any act of worship to the Lord while at a school compound. The enemy here is ensuring that the children of God hear less and less of His word, if you judge by the fact that our children spend more time in schools than at home.

This enemy that we have probably never stopped to think about his crooked ideals and a bad value that you and I have been ignorantly following has no amount of love for you and me. You could think a lying tongue/deceitfulness is very clever of you, but what you may not be aware is that he is condemning you to hell! Casually entertaining habits like gossip, slander, jealousness, envy, pride, and unforgiveness deeply and gradually entrenches you to a pit of destruction. The enemy lost his glory and was condemned to a torturous life and since then he has been recruiting the offspring of man to join him. Please do not share with him his horrible loss.

My Holy bible has demonstrated to me very wonderfully with His living word how worthy I am to God, how precious me and you are that the psalmist could not help but wonder, who is man really? That God never tires to make arrangements for our souls to be saved from hell. He has been knocking at your door, Jesus has been interceding for you constantly, His mercy has been locating you, He has marked you as His very own .The precious blood of Jesus that was shed at Calvary is awaiting to cleanse your soul from all the filthiness and unworthiness, to make you walk free from captivity and unbound you from any chains of bondage and destruction, to heal your wounded heart, to bring you hope and freshness , to announce good news to you and for you to proclaim you year of favor. How long are you going to let the enemy do a happy dance at the expense of your pain and suffering? How long do you plan to allow the enemy wreaks havoc in your life and relationships? How long my dear reader is you going to let the enemy steal your joy and purpose? How long before we see you shining in your calling? Please I beg you accept Jesus Christ in your life. Let His precious blood and great power turn your life around.

Are you passionate about winning souls for Christ? Have you been praying for your colleague, friend, family member, neighbor, supervisor, lecturer, teacher and anyone you know to get born again and experience life eternal? Before I wrote this post, I made a prayer that me and you we can stand in the gap for that person or persons that you want them in the Kingdom, simply insert their name in the following prayer:

O Lord, our God of heaven, the great and awesome God who keeps his covenant of unfailing love to the descendants of Abraham, listen to our prayer. Look down and see us praying day and night for the salvation of

I confess that we have sinned terribly against you and now we plead for your mercies and forgiveness. Let your wondrous precious blood of your lamb wash us anew and redeem our life and that of

Please Lord let your mercy locate and convict these souls, for it is in Jesus mighty name we pray. Amen

Joseph, Amina and I during #EachOneReachOne street Evangelism.

PS: This post has been written as a dedication to Amina in the photo above. My brother Joseph and I met her at a backstreet holding an injection ready to give herself a shot and it brought a tear to my mind. She was heavily smelling of liquor as I embraced her and I could see how the bondage drug addiction had taken a toll on her youthful body, this broke my heart . We talked to her about Jesus after initiating a pleasant rapport and to the glory of God she wanted to be set free and meet the Jesus we preached to her. It was clear from our conversation that she had no knowledge about the son of God, let alone what He could do to her life. We led her into a prayer of confessing the Lord Jesus is her savior as well and believe in His anointing power to break every chain of destruction from Amina’s life. Please remember her in your prayer as well. The street evangelism that we were part of on this day as we met Amina, is organized by Njugush of Kkrew and his team. It takes place every last Saturday of the month where children of God convene at Bata Hilton (Nairobi) from 10.00 AM with an aim to share the love of Christ to strangers. The social media hashtag is #EachOneReachOne

Consider sharing this post and be a blessing to somebody else, from my heart to yours much love.

Baraka tele!

Mkamboi.

The miracle of KNOWING your God

“At the usual time for offering the evening sacrifice, Elijah the prophet walked up to the altar and prayed, “O Lord, God of Abraham, Isaac , and Jacob, prove today that you are God in Israel and that I am your servant. Prove that I have done all this at your command. O Lord, answer me! Answer me so these people will know that you, O Lord, are God and that you have brought them back to yourself.”

“Immediately the fire of the Lord flashed down from heaven and burned up the young bull, the wood, the stones, and the dust. It even licked up all the water in the trench!” (1 Kings 18:36-38)

Elijah’s story is told in 1 Kings 17 to 2 Kings 2:11.

This was a prayer of a major prophet called Elijah. Allow me to do a short profiling of this great servant of God. Elijah was the first in a long line of important prophets God sent to Israel and Judah. In particular Israel, the northern kingdom, had no faithful kings throughout history. Each King was wicked, leading people to worship the pagan gods. God called prophets to try rescue Israel from its moral decay and spiritual decline. These prophets played an important role in both nations, encouraging the people and the leaders to turn back to God. If you read the entire Elijah’s ministry as recorded in the Holy Bible, you will find a man who was sent to confront, and not to comfort. He boldly spoke God’s words to a King who often rejected his message. Elijah accomplished amazing miracles through God, by simply responding to the miracle of being able to KNOW God. He predicted the three- year drought, was used by God to restore a dead child to his mother (the widow at Zarephath) and represented God in a showdown with priests of Baal and Asherah.

I am fascinated by the confidence that Elijah had in his God, it shocks and challenges me at the same time. He is recorded for saying these unflinching words to king Ahab, “As surely as the Lord God of Israel, lives—the God I serve—there will be no dew or rain during the next few years until I give my word!” True to his words, there was no rain and a drought ensued much to the chagrin of queen Jezebel who believed her Baal gods were responsible for rains and bountiful harvest. How boldly do I declare God’s words over a ‘baal’ gods kind of situations?

There was a frustration that Elijah had with his people, and he was damn tired of seeing them following dead pagan gods. He knew he served the only true living God and beside Him there is no other. He wanted his people to acknowledge the true God, whom his life was committed to. This frustration is what led to the mighty showdown between him and the Baal prophets.

Elijah had a great plan on how his people will know the true God, he asked for the King to call all the Baal and Asherah prophets along with the people of Israel to Mount Carmel. There would be a sacrifice involving two bulls, one for the Elijah and the other to be done by the 450 Baal prophets. The plan was however to offer the sacrifice without setting the fire on it. Each would prepare an altar and call on the name of their god. The god who would answer by setting fire to the wood is then to be declared the true God. Elijah let the Baal prophets take the first turn, and so they did their rituals, called on their god until Elijah started mocking them. They raved all afternoon until the time of evening sacrifice, but still there was no sound, no reply and certainly no fire response!

Then Elijah called on to the people to gather around, he prepared an altar for his God and made it more exciting by digging a trench around the altar that could hold 3 gallons of water then had 4 large jars full of water poured over the offering and wood. All this he did to show the mightiness of his God. He then cried to God to prove himself before his people, so that they can know he is the true God. We read how immediately after his prayer a fire flashed down from heaven and burned up the bull, the wood, the stones, the dust and even licked up all the 3 gallons of water in the trench! On seeing this people fell face down on the ground and cried out, “The Lord—he is GOD!”

Is there anything too difficult for the God you have committed your life to? In our daily walk of salvation we meet with situations that need to know whom we serve, the question is whom do I serve? If we call on the God we serve to prove Himself to that stubborn situation, will He prove that ‘Yes, I am your God!’ Have I responded to the call of knowing and having a CONSTANT relationship with my Lord? 

I have been in situations where I have been mocked for my belief in God, because of what society has described as an ‘ideal life’ by people very close to me. I have been asked not once nor twice, why can’t that God you pray to and serve ‘show’ Himself in you? Their look is always puzzling, as if to question but what kind of God really do you serve? It is in such moments that I am grateful that I have an experience and a relationship with God, because I can count on the many times I cried to God and depended on Him solely, and He came through. It occurred to me if I did not take that step to get closer to God and know him, these very mocking words from my people would have send me downhill and cast doubts in my spiritual walk. 

Take a step further my dear brother and sister, a step of faith, devote more into His HOLY word and stay in close relationship with Him. Your personal relationship with Him will cause you to disgrace any ‘baal’ situation showing up on your way. You shall call on His name and He shall hear you!

1 John 5:4 &5; For every child of God defeats this evil world, and we achieve this victory through our faith. And who can win this battle against the world? Only those who believe that Jesus is the son of God.

Dear reader, nothing is too difficult or impossible for God. God is looking for me and you to win the battle against homesexuality, poverty, fornication , addictions, pornography  name any battle you are faced with here and know that through Jesus as a child of God you are a winner. Do not keep on postponing the time for walking with him, He is calling you and has a great plan that only you can accomplish through Him.

Lets pray together;

Dear God, I accept that Jesus Christ is your son whom you sacrificed so that I can have a relationship with you, know you and have eternal life. Please forgive my sinful nature as I accept Jesus as my Lord and savior. I am now born again and I stand to inherit the heavenly riches that you have promised your beloved children. It is in Jesus mighty name that I pray.

Amen.

If you are now a new believer and wondering what next, after this prayer; find a fellowship of believers and join them as I pray God's guidance to order your steps. If you are in Nairobi and its environs, allow me to invite you to my home church Purpose Centre where we are Raising Kingdom Champions, located along Mombasa road, opposite Sameer Buisness park. We have 2 services every Sunday ; 1st service 8.00 am to 10.00 am ,2nd service 10.30 am to 12.30 pm. Welcome to the Kingdom of God!

Blessed month of July!

The call

" But Lord.' Gideon replied, "how can I rescue Israel? My clan is the weakest in the whole tribe of Manasseh, and I am the least in my entire family!" The Lord said to him, "I will be with you. And you will destroy the Midianites as if you were fighting against one man'" (Judges 6:15,16)

The full story of Gideon is told in the book of Judges chapters 6-8. He is also mentioned in Hebrews 11:32.

I have particularly centered on Gideon's story because many a times, I have found myself feeling inadequate and fearing my own limitations would prevent God from working through me. His story resonates with me, especially when time and again Gideon asked God to prove that indeed He was Lord, not once but twice even after the miracle of the burnt offering on the rock. Perhaps you may dismiss his unbelief to be too much, but here was a man who considered himself least in his family, that also came from not a so respected clan and God had just dropped a bombshell that he Gideon of the Manasseh tribe would rescue the Israelites from Midianites. Midianites for seven years had oppressed and treated Israelites with cruelty to an extent of pushing them to hide into caves. The Holy bible tells us that whenever the Israelite planted their crops,marauders from Midian, Amalek and the people of the east would attack Israel, camping in the land and destroying crops leaving them with nothing to eat, taking all the sheep,goats and donkeys. These enemies arrived on droves of camels too numerous to count!

But here in the midst of all these trouble, God chose a least known son of Joash and a farmer Gideon, to lead Israel into victory against the Midian. There is no doubt the victory was from God, since only 300 Israelite men went after a 15000 army of Midianites, to say these 300 men defeated an army of 15000 soldiers would be a far fetched story. However the angel of God had to overcome three objections before Gideon was convinced:(1) Gideon's feelings of responsibility for his family's welfare, (2) his doubts about the call itself, and (3) his feelings on inadequacy for the job. Eventually Gideon is convinced and we see him obeying with zest, resourcefulness and speed. He is renowned for being a military strategist who was an expert at surprise.

How many times have we shattered at the task at hand, because of only thinking about ourselves and our very own "mental" limitations?  We tell ourselves how we are not capable of accomplishing, and may be if we came from a different family, tribe, school, nation, whatever background then we could PROBABLY be capable. How many times have we avoided to say what should be said ,the truth because we have tagged ourselves as not worthy to be heard? How many times has God ministered to your spirit , yet you take your sweet time evaluating how "it can't be you to take on the project"? How many times do we SILENCE that inner voice, inner inspiration and thinking of it as just a mere dream? How many times do we let our dreams just pass by and get comfortable in our accustomed zones? How many times do we know the direction that our Creator wants us to follow, but we are too afraid and adamant to follow what we know is 'best' for us?

Being a servant of God like Gideon means obedience to His holy word by giving Him your full attention believing God will prepare you for any task that He has called you to. In 2014, God spoke to me about serving him in a particular capacity. At the moment, nothing made sense in my present circumstances to fulfill the task He asked of me, and yes I went Gideon style. At first I was happy that I had 'heard' God, but when I looked at what He had in store for me, then the doubts began. You see, the 'task' is what made everything doubtful, and the more I did my own evaluation, the more I saw myself incapable, inadequate and if truly that was God's voice, then He probably had the wrong address. Despite all the naysayers voices in my head, I managed to casually ask God "But how?" Then I graduated to praying about it, and surrendered my will to His very perfect will. It was not easy, going through the turbulence, at some point I was sure I had lost it, yet I kept on believing He must have a way forward. Having made peace in my head and confessed daily to who I am in Jesus Christ, I saw His shaping of a pattern in my life, although it looked like a total disruption; from being separated to people I held close, to my career taking a whole different route that I had not anticipated and His purpose in my life becoming everything that I want to do as His servant.

The obedience came with opportunities opening before me, that I knew God had everything to do with. In all these opportunities the pattern was clear and clearer, He was and He is still preparing and molding me for His purpose. Yes, I did have my doubts, probably more than Gideon had, but when eventually I was convinced that God indeed is at the centre of it, I had a great sense of peace and calmness, knowing very well, through Him, He will work out the way, my part in this journey is to be available to be used as His vessel and trust in Him no matter what the society says in contrast.

In line with my experience, I would like to encourage you my dear reader, that nothing to God is impossible as long as He has called you. Lift the burden off your shoulders, and let Him work through you for His glory. Do not let your present circumstances dictate to you what ought and what ought not, instead focus on His word. His word is dependable and true and I have known Him to be faithful despite the seemingly insurmountable odds. Today choose to listen to the spirit, choose to hear His word, Hear! Hear! Hear! and most importantly obey,even though it will look foolish....He knows the beginning from the end, who then is better to entrust your life and future with other than our Lord Jesus Christ?

Have you been postponing your destiny, and denying the voice of God your full attention? Allow me to pray with you beloved.

Lord Jesus Christ, the Alpha and Omega, the one who knew me before I was formed in my mothers womb and knows the count of my hair, I submit to your authority, I surrender my will to your Holy will and ask of you to refresh me with your word again and again. I pray for a constant fellowship with Holyspirit, I pray that every hindrance and obstacle against my Hearing the truth be completely shattered from my spiritual life, and only your will shall now henceforth take charge in my life. Use me Lord, as you intend and prepare me for your purpose, so as to showcase your Glory. It's in Jesus might name that I pray and believe. Amen

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xoxo,
Mkamboi!

2014 My Year My Season

Hi! It's has been quite a long minute between my last blog and yes this is my first post in 2014! My title may seem quite late especially since in a few days we bid the first quarter of 2014 good bye, my, time has flown so fast!! I have no good reason for being weary on blogging this year really, I could have done it on 7th Feb when my bundle of joy was turning  terrific two! But no I just didn't get my mojo right. However today, have been more than compelled to revisit this passion before the year is half way and I start calling myself lazy :-)

So here we go, it is 2014 my year  & my season! I must confess before I go further that it doesn't really feel like me to declare it this boldly, but oh,well there I said it, I decreed it and have permanently declared it! #Thunderclap for me! It surely feels different in a special way thou. I am a few hours to my birthday anniversary and I get to turn the big 30!!! ya ay:-) Grateful to God for the mercies, love, protection, provision, healing, guidance, fellowship, beautiful friendships, career milestones and I pray I have become the woman she intended me to be at this hour. I have so much to thank God for, but let me mention the peace within my heart, the joy I feel as a mother and the dreams in my heart that I see one by one getting realized are some of the amazing blessings I encounter daily. It is also around one and a half years since I totally made the decision to belong to the Kingdom, and if you are out there, still trying to figure it out, thinking you cannot make it and all...word of advise from a sister who loves you, it's not about your efforts really, come and experience His love and amazing grace. Your life will never be the same once you invite Him and let go of everything. Once God takes over, he first introduces you to Him and his personality and believe you me things you thought you were struggling with, will be  completely defeated because He is the Lord of Lords and there is no other like Him! Mighty, Powerful and Everlasting God! So my beloved, come, taste and see that the Lord is so good!

So this post is going to glorify my walk with Jesus and the blessings that have flowed in my life as I turn a new year older.As we crossed over to 2014 I did  something different with a couple of friends. I was tired of the same old cycle in my life and I desperately wanted things to change and to be different in my coming year. I wrote a couple of  requests to God on my notebook and decided to do a fast & prayer as I approached the gates of 2014. You know a time reaches and you just want to break and run free from it all!!! I had had enough of the mediocre life and it was time to take back what belongs to me, and my didn't I cry to God !!! God did not intend for me to feel being pulled out and stretched, I believed there is what He had planned for me, but something was wrong somewhere as my spiritual father puts it, "it's an error for a child of God to be lacking 'food' ". Well, let's say I was in every perfect mood to deal with this 'error'. According to the book of John 10:10, the word declares that~ "The thief comes only to steal, slaughter, and destroy. I've come that they may have life, and have it abundantly." So if Jesus came that I may have a rich life and satisfying one, why did I feel cheated? Where am I missing the point? I like how Myles Munroe describes prayer in his book "Understanding the purpose and power of Prayer" and he says, "Prayer is man giving God the legal right and permission to interfere in earth's affair." When you make that decision to pray, you have given heaven,an earthly license to influence earth! So if  we go back to my verse John 10:10 and read in context we find out that in verse 9, Jesus says,"I am the door; if anyone enters through Me, he will be saved, and will go in and out and find pasture."

 This simple yet powerful revelation reminded me to speak the word of John 10:10 over my situation and I said " I have accepted you Jesus in my life, come live within me,save me, let me find pasture and not only have eternal life but have it abundantly in Jesus name I pray." You can say this prayer with me, and I hope you are willing to let go and let God in your life. It is important for us to recognize what works best for us is God's will in our lives and so each time you supplicate your requests through prayer, pray with that understanding,that His will is the best for you. If a certain engagement didn't work out for you and the door was shut,  dust off knowing that God has you for the long haul and as you keep in tune with Him ,you will be amazed with the surprises that He keeps unwrapping for you.

As I turn to this great age, God has confirmed my calling, he has reminded me of the dreams that he put in my heart from a very young age,only that I was not in tune with him to listen to what he was saying about my life. All the same I am grateful as I come to this understanding and I am now flexible and open to do things His way. I am now happy in being my own, crafting my path, working hard at it but the best part of it all is knowing  it is the will of God over my life. So as I turn the page a new to a great chapter in my life, I plan to seek God on all my decisions, involve Him fully and rely on His word. I want to evolve to the Proverbs 31 woman. He has been amazing, my heart has been singing Imela through and through and that is why I know this is my year & my season.  I call upon His Holy name in my assignments, committing them entirely unto Him and saying, "am your vessel ,use me Lord to glorify your Kingdom".You too are blessed and God loves you so much, give Him a chance to run your life.

I love you, and I decree a year of fruitfulness and God's faithfulness over your life and mine.

He is able and faithful to keep His promises!

Waiting on God

I begin writing this post with an apprehensive heart,carefully measuring my words because the topic can never be exhausted...I believe in our own personal journeys of faith we've all had a different experience on how we wait on God. But perhaps what can remain constant to most believers is every 'wait' is different depending on the subject at hand. What have you been waiting on God to answer? How long has it been? What did you do during this period? Or maybe like me you are still waiting on God for something.

 When I gave my life to Christ, within me I thought things are now going to be smooth,whatever I asked God He will answer  because this time round it's a prayer of His very own child; a  prayer of a righteous woman ( not by might but by the Spirit of God through the powerful blood of the lamb). Little did I know,I had so much to learn before I could actually reap the benefits of his word from James 5:16 that says "The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much”. It didn't help much either when month after month I kept on hearing the wonderful things that God is doing on other people's lives whilst when I looked at my life I felt abandoned. I kept on singing a favorite gospel song by one Christina Shusho "Unikumbuke" which means "Remember me". However no matter how much I made the song my everyday prayer and did daily devotions and never missed the Sunday sermons,I still didn't have my 'big' prayer answered. I put it 'big' because I don't want to take for granted that for a long while I finally had my peace back by accepting my being a single mother,made new friends that had become like family to me, had great health both me and my daughter, and never lacked food nor shelter.

At times I felt  very discouraged and kept wondering where could I be going wrong? Where exactly in my life am I not pleasing God? Doesn't He see the tears of His child? Doesn't He think what I have gone through is enough? For how long am I going to be in the wilderness? When is my relief coming? When is my season of glory appearing? What about all the great things that God says about me? What about the prophesies spoken over my life? Many questions were on my mind. Nevertheless I didn't think quitting on God was an option. I knew very well by experience the price of serving the devil and for that reason I didn't see much to go back to...this salvation route had to be the only way for my life. I was determined to have a relationship with our mighty God and I kept on searching for truth with  gratitude.

It was while on this waiting period that I stumbled upon a post by one of my favorite blogger and my strength was renewed!  A year had passed since I had made my prayer  and still no manifestation. You can read the post here~ The Tide is Changing.
The author Kambua reminded me the story of Hannah in the bible,who year in year out could not have a baby yet. Her barrenness was a source of great humiliation and this led Hannah  to her knees before God.She cried to God  to a point that one day the priest saw how her eyes had become sore and her actions made the priest think she had gone mad. But as the story develops,God came through for her and prophet Samuel was born. It is a story of victory and God's faithfulness.

It was during that same month after reading that post and having a renewal of mind among other things such as deep revelations to what the 'enemy' can do,that my "baby" was delivered and in the most amazing way yet that only Jehovah can do! I still testify to this day of His glory! The Ephesians 6:12 verse finally made sense to me as a growing christian "For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places." and God kept on leading me to more scriptural revelations that are increasingly making my prayer life more effective.

So yes it could take a year like me to get an answer and it could be less or more,but whatever the case giving up on God and prayer is not an option. Whatever sacrifice you are making concurrently with your prayer just keep at it even more fervent and believe you me God will show up!

I have written this post as I reminder to myself of a waiting journey that yielded results eventually and because am still waiting on God for yet another 'baby'.Yesterday night as my midnight alarm rang to wake me up from sleep and pray, I wanted to give up because I had not seen a sign yet of my 'answer' and days have turned to weeks and weeks to months and the promise has not yet been delivered.Still, I woke up and knelt before God and kept on firing the prayer bullets. Today morning as I settled on my work station I resolved not to give up,and pray incessantly until His manifestation.  He makes all things possible to them that loveth the Lord! This post is to you  and me who is waiting on God,let's keep on trusting Him with unflagging resolve.

Blessings!

The Lifter of My head!

He is the Lifter of my Head! 

Have you ever been in a situation where you have been patient with God to the limits, to a break up point, to a position where you questioned your beliefs…you have fasted for days and prayed incessantly but still there seems to be no answer yet. Have you ever felt like you cannot go on? Have you ever felt like you cannot trust on God one day more?  Yeah? Then this may be the story for you. It’s a true story filled with despair, heartache and death. If that does not do it for you then let me add that after plummeting to the depths of despair, the story shall also rise to the greatest heights of God-given deliverance and joy. When the tide is changing and your biggest test becomes a life changing testimony. It has the valley of the shadow of death, but also the green pastures and still waters. The lows and highs of this story may just mirror your very own life. So if you are currently faced with difficulties that stretch your faith to breaking point I would ask you to read on.

I am reminded of a story in the Holy Bible in the book of 2 Kings Chapter 6 where Samaria was under siege.  There was a great famine in that city and it lasted so long that the prices for commodities had hit the rooftops. The King happened to pass by the city and a woman cried to him saying, “Help me, my lord the King!” The King replied, “If the Lord (GOD) does not help you, where can I get help for you? From the threshing floor?  From the winepress? ”  What follows next is a shocking depth of desperation shown by this woman when she killed her own son for food! The woman reveals to the King that she had come to an agreement with another woman to eat her son because of the prevailing hunger and the other woman was to do the same with her own son but she hid him when her turn came.  On hearing the woman’s confession the King  was pushed past breaking point… In what is probably the bleakest and most horrific story in the Old Testament, the king hears that this mother became so desperate that she cooked her own son for food. Unbelievable… We can barely imagine the severity and utter desperation of this situation and I am viewing it from the fact that I am a mother!

In this story the city of Samaria is holding on for as long as it can but things are getting too desperate. On crying out for help to the king, a woman is told ‘If the Lord does not help you, where can I get help for you?’ There are times in everyone’s life when all natural support seems to be cut off. This was it for Samaria and the King knew it. He had no extra wheat to feed his people and it was now at the point where it was God or nothing. Can you imagine the pressure these people where under?

Then the blame game begins when the King is literally angry with Elisha to a point of wanting him dead. Elisha was a prophet and earlier on had given the King a warning of things to come but he had also assured the King that God would deliver and all there was to it was to wait on God. But the King had waited…and waited until he could wait no longer. We see a story of a King who had waited… repented… wore sackcloth in a sign of humility before God… But still nothing. No answer, no sign of help yet. “Off with Elisha’s head” the king says. “I’m not waiting one minute more… this disaster is from the Lord! You lied to me Elisha” 

Have you ever got to that point? The king blamed Elisha for their trouble but maybe you have been blaming God? Have you got to the point where you have decided that you can wait no longer and must act? You have been seeking the Lord praying, fasting and reading the Bible looking for an answer… and the only reply you have got is silence. Maybe you’ve had a promise from God earlier in your life and now years have passed and, like Abraham, you now feel that you should take matters into your own hands to try bring about an answer? Well, if that is you, you are not alone and I have been there too, where my patience and my waiting on God has been tested to the utter limits. The king and the woman who cooked her son in this story are with you in the need to take matters into your own hands.

As the story develops, we see Elisha proclaiming the God of impossibilities and prophesies that by this time tomorrow the siege would be over and there would be plenty to eat. An officer to the King does not believe this and has his doubts. Can God really work so fast? We’ve waited for so long and did everything to please God and nothing happened. How can it be so that within 24 hours we will have plenty to eat? His lack of faith in God’s ability to do such a wonderful thing gets an immediate response from Elisha – “You will see it, but you won’t participate in it!”

Let me bring this back home to me and you. Like me you may have got something that is a real trial and a test for you right now? If so, then don’t give up just yet. The waves may come but the word of God proclaims that there is an anchor that will keep you firm and secure. Do you know what that anchor is? Do you know what it is that keeps your soul stable? It is HOPE based upon the unchanging nature and faithfulness of God. Let’s not be like the officer who just can’t see how God could or would bring victory where there was defeat. He doubted God’s ability, God’s willingness and God’s promise. Beware the unbelief that may lie within your soul. Unfortunately, it comes so very easy to a fallen humanity. Always remember, as we shall soon see, that God is very, very, resourceful and always faithful! God can always make a way!

Waiting is always a hard thing especially to the Y-generation where we are accustomed to ’INSTANTS’. In my experience God often makes us wait longer than we would like and He is often more silent than we would like. However I would like to encourage you to keep on trusting God in his appointed time He will make all things beautiful .All that God has promised you, be assured like Elisha that it will come to pass and no matter how long it takes! He is the lifter of our heads, Sovereign Lord!